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Sunday, November 26, 2006
26th November 2006
11:29 PM To Know I Wasn't There (for You). It hurt so much, That you walked away, And it hurt so much, That you left me behind. It made me cry, To see your tears, And it made me cry, To see your smile. I wanted to turn my back on you, And walk through a different door, I tried to forget everything you said to me, And walked down a different path. My heart was breaking, My world was falling, I was still living in a shadow of the distant past. It broke my heart, To know I wasn't there for you, And it broke my heart, That you said never again, I wanted you to know, I'll always remember you, And I wanted you to know, You will always live in my heart. I asked God why, why he gave me you, Yet I asked him why, you had to go, I knew I should have hidden my tears, For you, you were the one who suffered the most. Like the leaves, blown, Like the rain, fallen, You were gone, and I could only watch you go. For one more day, I wish I never met you, Is one more day, I wish you were here, I wished and wished, Knowing it will never be, But I wished and wished, Holding on to hope that was never there. I asked you why, Why it all just ended, And asked you why, You blamed me so, In my heart, I knew all the answers, But in my mind, I denied them all. Those times were torn apart And thrown into the wind, Those days were shattered into pieces And discarded on the ground, I went down on my knees to pick them up again, And try to mend it all back into what it used to be. But you, you walked away. In the night I clutch on to the pieces that you left behind for me, I held on to you tight, but you pulled away and walked on, I was so near to you, but so far away from your heart, I wanted to tell you so much, but you were shut from me, Shut away by the walls you built around yourself, And so I was left to stand there with only fragments of the past. I was trying to live the dream which has now become a nightmare. I never knew this could bring me so much pain, Yet I took it for granted, My mind was doing what my heart forbade, And when they asked me what wrong, It was nothing, nothing but a song, Composed and played, But now, the curtains have fallen, And the last note has faded away. ~ cherze ©2006 All rights reserved. There are times when I blame myself for not seeing, for being so blind. There are times when I lose touch of those feelings I swore I would never forget. There are the times when I can't help but cry because I can't bring myself to face you. If I were to die right now, the only thing I would regret would be not talking to you. I want to talk to you so bad, I don't want to live my life like this, regretting everything I didn't do for you, not speaking to you like I did before, not talking to you honestly about everything. |